Friday, September 13, 2013

I should be in class

So why am I blogging? Allisyn called me on my to class saying she didn't feel well. She wasn't running a fever so I told her to go back to class and if she felt worse later to call me and I would pick her up. Then mommy guilt kicked in. It has been pretty brutal this semester.

In our rush to find a replacement sitter, I didn't discuss many of the things I should have when we found Hiroka. (Who is proving to be wonderful!) So I texted Michael and Hiroka. Hiroka said she was more than fine with adding one of the older girls if they needed to come home. She even offered to go pick her up if I had left a car seat for Gabs. (Note to self: start doing that.)

So I decided to leave my first class early to pick up Alli and take her home before my second class. I can't really afford to miss my second class so I wanted to go pick her up before she called. So I called the school to see if they could have her ready. Then the nurse called me back and said Allisyn was feeling better. Like night and day feeling better.

I'm glad she is feeling better, I think she was just really tired this morning. I'm also a little frustrated that I left class for no reason. So I'm sitting in my car trying to refocus before my next class. I have a test in anatomy and microbiology on Monday, and I am no where near ready. Hopefully I can get it together over the weekend and at least pass them.

This post is from my phone, so sorry if it is full of grammar issues.

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Sunday, September 8, 2013

Here we go again

Wasn't I just blogging about childcare woes? They seem to be never ending for us. The childcare we had lined up for Gabi has informed us she is taking a hiatus from her daycare until she gets some stuff sorted out. We aren't sure what kind of emergency she has going on, but we do know from those who recommended her to us, it must pretty big for her to do this. So here we are again back to square one. I know that God will provide, but I'm really not liking the journey to get there. I'm already feeling like I'm not getting into my classes like I should be, and the uncertainty of who is going to be taking care of my sweet Gabi isn't helping at all.

On to some brighter bits of life, yesterday was opening day of soccer season! The big girls both had 10:00 games, so Gabi and I went and watched Piper's game, and then we were all able to walk down and catch the end of Allisyn's game. I missed out on Allisyn playing goalie. Apparently, she is pretty good at it! I cannot wait to see her in action. Piper did pretty well. She actually got into the middle of things a few times and made some contact with the ball.

Gabi wanted to keep up with the record of all the Hurlbut girls refusing to play in their first game. It was really really hot out, and she was probably hungry. I got a bright sunburn from her game. She has an earlier game next week, so hopefully it won't be as hot, and she will be more into it.

Michael is enjoying his new job. We are enjoying his schedule of him being off on the weekends! He should get to make all the soccer games this season, which is especially nice when we have two games at the same time.

Allisyn and Piper are both enjoying school. They both seem to enjoy their teachers. I think we should have good years this year!

Now I must try to get back to studying. I have a test on Friday, and one the following Monday. Hopefully everything will get sorted out with Gabi, and I can find the appropriate focus I need to study.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

What Am I Doing?

Sorry I haven't been around. Life gets crazy, and I don't make the time to document all the exciting things that happen. This summer was AWESOME! I didn't have any classes, so I was able to enjoy the summer without the added stress of keeping up with assignments. We made two trips to Minnesota. One was for the blessed event of my brother and his beautiful bride getting married. We were all in it, so it was super exciting and super fun.

Did you miss the pictures? No worries! Here's the link to the photographers blog!

We celebrated all three of the girls' birthdays while we were up in Minnesota. That meant two trips to the Mall of America. We made a stop at the Amercian Girl Store both times. That is where Allisyn decided to do her birthday shopping, and then Piper FINALLY got to pick out her Amercian Girl for her 5th birthday. Good memories were definitely made this summer.

But now that summer is over and we are settling back into the routine of things, I find myself struggling. Last year, we had our schedule all planned out. It was going to work out nicely, and my mommy guilt was minimal.

Things changed. Michael accepted a job at the VA hospital. This is FANTASTIC! I'm super proud of him. It has been his long-term goal. He was hired on as a supervisor and will be working nights again. The big challenge? He has to do his training during the day shift. This meant our nice little schedule we had set up had to change. We had to find someone to watch Gabi while I was in class. Hello maximal mommy guilt.

We started looking and found someone pretty quickly. She was close; she was a mom with two little girls for Gabi to play with. She had her degree in early childhood development; we were excited. Then 5 days before she was supposed to start watching her, she called and said she couldn't do it. I totally get the why and have no ill feelings toward her, but, needless to say, I went back into panic mode. Then we got a recommendation from some friends. This lady is even closer! She watches a few kids on different days, so Gabi still has people to play with. She really enjoys it. Then I get a text saying she has a family emergency this week, and she isn't going to be available this week. More panicking. Thankfully a wonderful friend from church said bring her over here! Gabi has been doing wonderfully with it all. She is just going with the flow.

Today she started back to Sonshine School. It's her Mother's Day Out. She loves it. She gets a lot out of it, and would be disappointed if she didn't get to go. So now, my sweet three-year-old, who was going to go hang out with a friend one day a week, and then have her SSS twice a week is going to childcare three days a week on top of her SSS. I know she is handling it well, and she seems to be enjoying it all, but I can't help but feel guilty that I'm not there with her like I was for the other too.

I turned in my application to nursing school last week, and I was mostly excited, but part of me was scared. What is it going to be like if I get in? I'm already struggling to get in enough study time this semester. (What am I doing blogging, right?) Allisyn has mentioned several times how she wishes I could be a "just at home" mom again. So that's where I am. In a place full of doubt and uncertainty that I am doing what is best for my family. I need to up my prayers and work on giving it completely over to God, but it's such a hard thing to let go of without dwelling on it.